The Deeper Me

Tis’ the Season as the age-old saying goes. I don’t think I am ever prepared for the Holidays. While they are certainly festive and happy I have been thrown for a loop Christmas in and Christmas out. It would seem this year is no different. What I can claim is that surprisingly I’m excited about following Father Time’s advice and ‘put(ting) one foot in front of the other.’

I had a revelation the other night. When you truly welcome in change the most amazing and unexplainable things happen. And no one just magically gets there. It takes a good deal of growing up to find out who you individually are as a person. Unfortunately this process can be quite painful. Everyone goes through periods of self-doubt. And everyone hurts someone they care about. But, it is my belief that a true friend sticks it out for the long haul. And a true friend knows that once the dark times leave, the end result is a stronger, easier person to love. Sometimes all we can ask for is time. Time to be the people we want to be. To be the people that can be depended on. To be the people that will be respected and show respect.

It is very scary to face who you were, with who you are. To know the dumb choices made along the road of self-discovery. To feel guilty and ashamed of this person you never wanted to be. To feel that you let it all spin out of control. To feel you should have done better and been better sooner.

And then something happens that makes it all melt away. You step back and see who you have become and you appreciate every event in your life that has led you to this point. And all you ultimately want is to share your newfound insight with the world!

Whatever ultimately happens will happen. I can not know the future, nor would I really want to because that would take the fun out of the unknown. But I can be excited for what will come.

Something amazing is on the horizon you can ‘betcha bottom dollar that tomorrow there will be sun.”

“I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books I want to read, and all the friends I want to see.” -John Burroughs